*Sigh*

So I have just had a hard time since the thought have having surgery has turned into a reality! Up until my surgery was scheduled I had no doubts that I have endometriosis. But now that my surgery is scheduled- I keep thinking, There is no way this is going on with me! I am SCARED beyond anything else that I will wake up form the Anesthesia and hear them say- well you don't have endometriosis and I have no clue why you cant get pregnant. Yesterday I was surfing the internet and was watching video's of what is going to happen during my surgery, not the smartest idea I have had!! It grossed me out and made me sick to my stomach! and then again I start telling myself that there is NO way that is growing in my body! UGH!!!! I want this to be all over with! after seeing that surgery- I think I am going to be really sore! Again- in my little head I thought this would be a breeze and I would be up and moving around that night- I highly doubt that! Well Crispin knows I have been struggling with this, so him and Marcus surprised me with these on Thursday! They are starting to wilt a little bit- since I barely took this picture this morning but they are still pretty!!! and mean a LOT to me! HAHA- can you see my reflection in the microwave????? I like my stuff to shine at my house :)